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Hi
When I see my friends photo e.g. Grand Canaries, I'm was  not think that is something special on this photos. I thought It is another boring experience. It is an adventure when you can discover a new area and you can came across happily through the wide animal but and beautiful nature.Of course, someone can said: "That country is extremely an expensive"  but we are living in quite reach country and everyone can put some effort to go there.
Sometimes, I think I need a break from all this people and I have to be more relaxed.I have a dream to move away from this place.

I'm feeling so unhappy here.
I remember when I was so many times abused by other Scots.
Basically, they are rubbish.Generally, some of the cases are bunch of assholes and I can live in this place like that.
Everyday, I'm saying ... I have find my hope when I will be living with happiness.I think I'm sad ... I'm really sad.
I don't have chance to make a career here.I think from my point of view.
I wonder how I can develop myself?I'm waiting but I don't know for what I'm ....