"rubbish people"

My different life in Poland.

I thought that I will be happy to see my close family and friends but unfortunately I was completely wrong. 
After period of time. I think that I don't have a brother and sister. 
They are different. I'm not belonging to those people. 
In general, I think it was for me just only stressful time.
On the end of the day, maybe they will something understand.I hope! 





 

WhatEverILikeIt: Jestem i wciaz zyje .....

WhatEverILikeIt: Jestem i wciaz zyje .....: Juz mam dosyc zycia w Szkocji ....z tymi popieprzonymi ludzmi , którzy otaczaja mnie kazdego dnia i udaja osoby, którymi nie sa. Przerost am...

Jestem i wciaz zyje .....

Juz mam dosyc zycia w Szkocji ....z tymi popieprzonymi ludzmi , którzy otaczaja mnie kazdego dnia i udaja osoby, którymi nie sa. Przerost ambicji nad trescia i do tego wszelkiego rodzaju zakompleksienie.

Zwykle polsko-czeskie cwanictw i glupota ludzka nie zna granic. 

Sam jestem Polakiem bo sie urodzilem w Polsce i tam wlasnie spedzilem moje najpiekniejsze lata zycia. 

Te moje beztroskie chwile. 

Na szczescie juz wszystko sie wyjasnilo. ( z tym niby zwiazkiem na odleglosc) .

Musze byc twardy, naprawde twardy jak ta skala, która jest nie do zniszczenia. 

Tak, po prostu, szlag by to wszsytko trafil. 

A dzisiaj cos z Johnnego Cash'a :) 

"My Personal God" 

Mom .... I'm sad today ....

I'm tired and I have enough.
I really have enough.
I have giving up .... I'm again upset.  

WhatEverILikeIt: College

WhatEverILikeIt: College: I'm go back to school ... I'm fighting  .... I'm some kind of person that I'm obvious.  Sometimes I wonder why some of the people are s...

College

I'm go back to school ...

I'm fighting  ....I'm some kind of person that I'm obvious. Sometimes I wonder why some of the people are so horrible sometimes. It is a quite hard to understand for me ....I'm living in Glasgow and I'm already miss my sweet City which is a Edinburgh. I'm thinking to get a job after some period of time. I have a big hope I will get it. I'm progressing .... I think I'm starting to looking after myself. Moreover, I have a rubbish relationship. It is a completely disaster. I thought we are good but I was totally wrong. I was completely wrong . I have a wish to have something normal, absolutely . I mean stable life....I'm worrying because I really don't want to be alone ....just only by myself. I think I will spend the Christmas Time just only by myself or there is another option.Maybe I will spend time with my family. I don't think if that's a great idea?! I don't have a too much money ....I can buy just only few basic things. I have a wish ... I have a big wish ....I wonder about my life. 

I want to have a something totally stable. 

    

Last night .....

Last night.... 
I was drinking and to be obvious, it was a great. 
We just went out  and by accident I have met a few guys. Just friends. 
I'm feeling quite relaxed and I'm good.

I'm perfect. 
Much better.

I have made a space in my group.

Oh my God. 

WhatEverILikeIt: Tired

WhatEverILikeIt: Tired: I think ...... I think I'm tired ... I'm really tired .... I went to barber to cut my hair finally. I think definitely were too long. I was...

Tired

I think ......
I think I'm tired ...
I'm really tired ....
I went to barber to cut my hair finally.
I think definitely were too long.
I was not looking "handsome" and nice.
My hair was not so pleasant to look at it.
Am I doing something good and start to live with my own life ?! 

WhatEverILikeIt: it is before 12 o'clock

WhatEverILikeIt: it is before 12 o'clock: Hi When I see my friends photo e.g. Grand Canaries, I'm was  not think that is something special on this photos. I thought It is another bo...

it is before 12 o'clock

Hi
When I see my friends photo e.g. Grand Canaries, I'm was  not think that is something special on this photos. I thought It is another boring experience. It is an adventure when you can discover a new area and you can came across happily through the wide animal but and beautiful nature.Of course, someone can said: "That country is extremely an expensive"  but we are living in quite reach country and everyone can put some effort to go there.
Sometimes, I think I need a break from all this people and I have to be more relaxed.I have a dream to move away from this place.

I'm feeling so unhappy here.
I remember when I was so many times abused by other Scots.
Basically, they are rubbish.Generally, some of the cases are bunch of assholes and I can live in this place like that.
Everyday, I'm saying ... I have find my hope when I will be living with happiness.I think I'm sad ... I'm really sad.
I don't have chance to make a career here.I think from my point of view.
I wonder how I can develop myself?I'm waiting but I don't know for what I'm ....

Day by day .....

I'm not happy .... depressed. 

I'm not really well. 

I don't know what was happened. 

I'm feeling unwell. I'm confused.

I don't know I'm doing here. 

My life is some kind of night mare. 

Swiat na trzezwo jest nie do przyjecia !

WhatEverILikeIt: In one day

WhatEverILikeIt: In one day: Every think felt down within just only one day. Amazing ..... my all and of course, the game with the person that I have never met in my en...

In one day

Every think felt down within just only one day.
Amazing ..... my all and of course, the game with the person that I have never met in my entire life....

What a crappy day ... fuck all the stuff.

No plans , no future ... and all the time by myself.
There is so many people, bad people everywhere.

Fuck sake.....

Hi 

I'm sick today. Nervousness! Fucking hell. What a country I'm living. Scotland! Sometimes I think is the worst country in the World. I thought the local people who lives there are more tolerate foreigners?! Yes, just only in my dream. 

What the fuck is wrong with this people?! 

Another day in the College... Glasgow City College

Hi

I'm quite angry .... I think I'm really angry, annoyed by the basic human being.
I'm angry by the people, yes, by the people.
People who are not judge you because  of you origin. I'm angry.

I'm totally angry....


I'm angry about some of the Scots, especially the young Scots.

Another day at school tomorrow. Another unhappy day .





What a fu...king bloody day. 

I hate it. 

Winter time.

Winter...

I don't like Winter when is freezing outside. 
Days are shorter and of course, there is less sunniest days. Nights are a longer. We are suppose to sleep longer or sleep all winter time like a polar bear. I think they have fantastic life - I mean they are not bother about something. Seems they are Happy.
Moreover, we have wake up every single day and fight.... yes fight to survive.
Go to work and earn some money for living.  Cover basic living cost. 

I wonder how many people struggling to survive during a recession time?

Winter, make me highly depressed. I'm behaving differently. I know that lack of sun make me a bit sad.
I'm not so energetic person. I think I'm slow down.


However, I have a dream to go to nice and warm country and be happy every single day. 

Quite strange

I'm feeling strange. 

I don't know what is the reason.
I really don't know.
I have a difficulties to concentrate and I'm becoming easily sleepy and of course, lack of the commitments to study and pick up another subject. I mean "another subject to learn".
Accounting - such a boring ....
Nothing exiting and I think that is not exactly for me.
I thought I will do something different and I have a big hope to survive.
Anyway, I have an another problem! I have to find a job.
I wonder if anybody know something about it?!
There is another subject of matter.
I need some decent money to "explore" my expensive hobby and develop myself.
I have a problem.
My flat is a half unfurnished. During winter time can be an extremely cold. 

I will add something later ( if I will have a time tonight) 

Every roads is going to our homes

Today:)

My normal day like most of the days in life.
I came here. I mean to my "empty" flat. There is nobody here. Just only me and my flat.

Have good night, Dear Blog.